The 37-year-old said she saw thousands of souls in heaven and knows she will go back there one day – but first she needs to serve her purpose on earth.
Betty Guadagno was just 12 when she first tried drugs.
She went on to suffer years of addiction and poverty before an overdose led her to experience her parent’s excruciating joint suicide from their perspective and when she came back, her whole life changed.
She would flit between concoctions of ketamine, mushrooms, heroin, methamphetamine and LSD for decades after growing up in a “chaotic” home.
Now 37, Betty told Mayim Bialik’s Breakdown podcast: “I grew up in a really traumatising environment. It was really chaotic – it was full of physical abuse, emotional abuse, poverty, addiction.”
“And so my whole life I was just taught that if anything bad happens to you, don’t talk about it, just medicate it and sedate it.”
Betty said she watched everyone else in her Las Vegas family do that. Both of her parents were addicted to drugs and lived in poverty.
At the height of the OxyContin crisis in America, her parents would “doctor shop”, meaning they saw several medical professionals without the other’s knowledge. The couple would be prescribed 1,000 pills a month, they would take half and sell the rest.
Betty said: “Drugs came into my life around 12 years old – maybe by the time I was 15 I knew I was in love with substances.
“My first drug experience was methamphetamine. I was a really good student, I was a good kid, I was trying to escape the cycle of my family.
“I was in all of these advanced placement classes and one of these girls in my classes came over to me and she was like ‘Do you want to stay up all night and study’. This is when she tried methamphetamines for the first time.
She said she was “in love” with substances by the time she was 18, and that drugs has “swept me away.” Her first period in rehab was at 18.
When she was at rock bottom she resorted to sex work. Betty said she was stealing, lying, cheating – and that she was a staunch atheist.
Betty said she “saw men in this very distorted way – I was sort of an anti-feminist and had a lot of empathy for men.
“For me sex work was not an empowering thing – it was rock bottom.”
At one point was using five bags of heroin a day – and she would detox just so that she could feel the high again. She would “manipulate women and get them strung out on drugs.”
Then, at 24, she had managed to get herself clean for a week, she had just got married – and then she found her parents dead.
She had been with her sister when they couldn’t get hold of her mother and father. They pulled up to their house to hear the smoke alarms sounding. Horrifically, both of her parents had overdosed, and two candles had set the house on fire as they died.
Betty’s sister screamed at full volume – but Betty could not comprehend what had happened.
She said: “After my parents died there were two voices – one said ‘you have to stop using, drugs have just killed your parents. The other said: ‘you have to keep using – this is all you have left of your parents – this is their legacy.’ “
She said her mother had tried to end her own life several times but she “never in a million years conceptualised that my father could do that – never mind that they could do it together.”
Betty could not deal with looking after her sister and she “abandoned” her. She said: “I had dozens of jobs, marriages, divorces.” Her manifesto was “just use, destroy, over and over again.”
One day, Betty decided to take more drugs than usual once she had once again, completely changed her life and moved to New York. By this time she had been married three times.
She was in the laundromat, and started to feel a more unusual high than she usually would. She began to run home – but saw herself trapped at every corner of the street – she said she felt like she was “stuck in the Matrix.”
Then her near-death experience started. She said: “My body collapsed and I could see myself outside of myself – the first part of my experience was a life review.”
The experience had no chronological order because it felt like a “download.” She said her “soul came online for the first time.”
Then, horrifically, she started to see her parents’ joint suicide from their perspective.
She said: “It felt like the most agonising betrayal of life. It felt like every cell in my body was being shredded apart.”
“I saw things from their suicide that I didn’t know happened. I watched them write their suicide notes. I watched them embrace each other as their bodies started dying.”
She thought as she saw her parents dead, she must also be dead.
Started to hear dad’s voice chanting to her, “You are worthy of all the love in the universe.”
Betty said: “I didn’t believe that, but I followed that voice, and that’s how I ended up in the light of my near-death experience.’
She said she was on board a spaceship with thousands of other souls. She said she discovered she was “part of a tribe.” Betty said: “I have a soul family that I came here with.”
“Because I was a meth-head prostitute, they couldn’t show me philosophy – so they showed me things I could understand, like clips of films. So they showed me The Matrix, Inception and Dreams May Come.”
They told her these were the blueprints for the “video game we are all living inside.”
Betty said: “It felt like three seconds of time – not even a millisecond of time – but it was actually around 8 hours. But it felt like everything happened ‘instantly’.”
She said she saw the faces of the women she manipulated and “prostituted”, saying, “I was really not a good person – and here I am facing the consequences, seeing these women’s faces and their pain.”
Betty added: “Every soul is here to accomplish some sort of forgiveness – now I’m seeing that I chose all of it and I’m breaking free of the chains of victimisation. I’m a divine co-creator of my own reality.”
She said she didn’t want to go back – but her soul family said she said the same thing every time she came to heaven
Betty claims she was shown another baby she could be born into – it was in the hospital right next to her house and she would be born to teenage parents. She told them she didn’t want to have to start from zero.
She thought she was un-fixable – but her “soul family” told her the second half of her life would be carrying out her purpose.
Betty said: “I had never heard of a near-death experience before this happened to me. I didn’t believe it for months after it happened to me either.”
On initially waking up, she thought she had got so high she had hallucinated speaking to God.
She eventually stayed in rehab for 18 months and finally got clean. She said: “Withdrawal is hell, there’s nothing physically wrong with you but it feels like you’re being stabbed over and over again in your eyeball.
“It’s only a week, but people run away from that week of pain for decades. Methamphetamine totally destroyed my brain.”
Betty has now turned her life upside down and works with people to help them sober. She is involved in outreach and is now clean and works as a “transformation coach”.
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