As John Davidson faces fresh public attention following the BAFTAs, his powerful documentary I Swear, I Can’t Help It is now streaming on Amazon Prime offering vital context about life with severe Tourettes syndrome
A powerful BBC documentary is now available to stream on Amazon Prime, offering timely insight into the life of Tourette’s advocate John Davidson following renewed public attention around his condition.
Davidson’s life first entered the public eye when, aged just 16, when the BBC filmed him for the half-hour documentary John’s Not Mad aired in 1989. The show explored what it was like growing up with severe Tourette’s syndrome in a small Scottish town.
The programme proved life-changing and later inspired the award-winning film I Swear, which took home three of its six nominations, including Casting at the 2026 BAFTAs. While actor Robert Aramayo, who portrayed Davidson, made history by winning both the EE Rising Star Award and Best Actor.
Now, a follow-up to John’s original documentary is available to stream. I Swear, I Can’t Help It, which first aired on the BBC in 2009, follows Davidson through his 30s as he continues to live with Tourettes syndrome. While it is less widely known than John’s Not Mad, its arrival on Amazon Prime Video gives viewers a deeper and more personal insight into Davidson’s life beyond the programme that first made him known and the film that stole the show at the BAFTAs.
Davidson, whose condition causes involuntary vocal and physical tics, found himself back in the spotlight after a controversial moment at the British Academy Film Awards. During the ceremony, he involuntarily shouted a racist slur while actors Michael B Jordan and Delroy Lindo were on stage presenting an award.
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The incident was broadcast on BBC One despite a two-hour delay, and was only removed from BBC iPlayer the following morning. BAFTA host Alan Cumming later issued an on-air apology to viewers, explaining that Tourette’s syndrome is a disability and that the outburst was not intentional.
Reaction online was immediate and completely divided, with some wrongly attributing the tic to Davidson’s beliefs, while others criticised the broadcaster’s duty of care.
Davidson apologised the following day, saying he was “deeply mortified if anyone considers my involuntary tics to be intentional or to carry any meaning.”
He described feeling a “wave of shame” and stressed that the slur was a word he would “never use” and would “completely condemn” without Tourette’s. “It’s the last thing in the world I believe,” he said, adding that his tics are “not an intention, not a choice and not a reflection of my values.”
A long-time advocate for Tourette’s awareness, Davidson has appeared in multiple BBC documentaries over the years. One of the most notable is the 2009 film I Swear, I Can’t Help It, a 59-minute documentary that follows his life after John’s Not Mad and focuses on his ongoing campaign to educate the public about the condition.
I Swear, I Can’t Help It, shows an insight into Davidson’s advocacy for Tourette’s as it shows him meeting with Greg, a young boy diagnosed with the syndrome whose tics occasionally make him collapse or appear frozen, as the pair get together to see how each copes with the condition.
Now, this documentary has arrived on Amazon Prime giving viewers a better understanding of the condition which has considerably impacted Davidson’s life since he was 12 years old suffering from a severe form of Tourette’s.
Although it is not known when the documentary was added to Amazon Prime, other than the year date of 2026, it seems perfectly fitted for the situation at the BAFTAs over the weekend.
Davidson has endured significant backlash from social media users, many of whom have never heard of Davidson and his story – making the documentary on Amazon Prime more relevant than ever.
The charity Tourettes Scotland explained that the BAFTAs incident was a coprolalia tic. Speaking exclusively the Daily Record, the charity described what this is. They said: “Corporelia is an involuntary tic just like any other tics. There is no meaning behind it, and it should never be taken personally.
“Only 10 per cent of the Tourette’s population have these tics and they are quite often linked to contextual/environmental tics. Examples of coprolalia could be shouting something racial when you see someone with a different skin colour. It may also be something homophobic, sexual, or regarding disability.”
Through the documentary viewers can see Davidson deal with corporelia, with the opening scenes showing him shouting ‘f**k off’ out loud in his local ASDA. As well as various tics shouting ‘sha**ing,’ ‘beast’ and other tics about body parts and pedophiles.
With Tourettes Scotland highlighting that these involuntary comments do not mean anything. They said: “The person with Tourette’s does not mean what they are saying. Offensive tics can happen at any time they are not controlled.”
Watch I Swear, I Can’t Help It on Amazon Prime now.



