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The House Article | Inside The Battle For Labour’s Mainstream: Luke Akehurst Vs Luke Hurst

Labour First’s Luke Akehurst and Mainstream’s Luke Hurst (l-r)
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Two internal players called Luke are battling to claim Labour’s mainstream. The outcome of their rivalry will shape the future of the party – and possibly the country. Sienna Rodgers reports
On one side is Luke Akehurst. He is a veteran organiser within the party and has served as secretary of Labour First, the ‘old right’ Labour factional group, for 20 years. In recognition of his services, the 54-year-old became a Labour MP for the first time at the last general election, and now also runs a WhatsApp group of 198 MPs called “mainstream”.
On the other is Luke Hurst. He is the lesser-known Luke, having only involved himself in Labour during Jeremy Corbyn’s leadership years, via student politics. Today, the 27-year-old is national co-ordinator of new membership organisation Mainstream, which represents the soft left of the party and is best known for being close to Manchester mayor Andy Burnham.
As their respective brands suggest, both claim to stand for Labour’s mainstream. And both, behind the scenes, are doing the hard work of organising the networks of MPs and activists. Whoever proves most successful will determine where the party goes next.
‘Mainstream’ on WhatsApp
“It’s not some sort of den of hot political intrigue,” Akehurst says of his MPs’ WhatsApp group. Comprising almost half of the Parliamentary Labour Party (PLP), and open to ministers as well as backbenchers, the messages in it are not usually very political.
“I will occasionally put things in it like, ‘Here’s the details of the trigger process’ and, ‘Can you tell me who your constituency has elected to annual conference and where they stand politically?’” he explains. (The trigger process is the procedure by which Labour MPs are reselected, or deselected, by their local parties.)
“But really, the PLP, thankfully, hasn’t gone down the Tory path of online groups where there’s incredibly frank political discussions, because I think we’ve learnt the lesson of that getting leaked all the way through the last Tory government.”
It mostly consists, he says, of MPs asking colleagues for the basics – to help make their upcoming all-party parliamentary group meeting quorate, for example, or to share canvassing leaflets they can take inspiration from. Part of the reason is that the membership is so broad.
“My criteria was people who, at the start of this Parliament, I perceived to be broadly aligned with the leadership,” Akehurst says. “But some of the fault lines that we’ve had around policy, on welfare reform and stuff, would go right through the middle of that group. That’s just the political reality of where we are now.”
The Labour First parliamentary group – which has 104 MPs and peers in its own WhatsApp chat – is where MPs from that tradition can find more political intrigue. Its meetings, which take place at least monthly, do not focus on chatter about “who’s up, who’s down”, leadership contenders being floated, nor the latest controversial legislation going through Parliament – but instead on “healthy strategic discussions” about their role in the party, according to Akehurst.
Mainstream the organisation
When Hurst first encountered factional Labour politics at Leeds University, Nols – as the National Organisation of Labour Students was known – was being scrapped by the Corbyn leadership.
He says he belonged to neither side in that war: not the ‘Nolsies’ defending the body, nor Labour Students Left, which championed its abolition. But he backed the move to a one-member-one-vote system, so aligned himself with the latter. That positioning foreshadows Mainstream’s own: not Labour right, not fully left, but sitting in the soft middle.
Hurst later moved to Manchester, where he was a Unison rep in a hospital, then completed a master’s in philosophy at King’s College London, before working for Neal Lawson’s centre-left pressure group Compass. It is from there that he has been seconded to Mainstream, which had Compass and soft left group Open Labour contribute to its start-up costs when it launched last autumn.
He organised the Compass “CHANGE: HOW?” conference in May 2025, headlined by Burnham, Miatta Fahnbulleh and Louise Haigh. “That was a big moment for the soft left trying to reassert its politics and say it had a distinct Labour tradition and ideological basis,” Hurst says.
Labour’s 2026 internal elections
Labour First is squarely focused on organising ahead of September party conference and for Labour’s National Executive Committee (NEC) elections.
“Media can turn up at conference and go, ‘The mood of Labour Party Conference has changed’, as though it’s some random collection of people that turn up,” Akehurst observes. While speeches can make the weather – he cites Hugh Gaitskell in 1960 or Neil Kinnock in 1985 – the nine months of factional wrangling in the run-up to the event are far more likely to shape it.
This involves co-ordinating members in local parties to deliver a set of delegates on the conference floor who reflect a faction’s politics – for Akehurst, that means members who will be “cheering ministers to the rafters, not trying to undermine them in any way”.
“The constituency half is an aggregation of 650 local organisational battles,” the MP explains. (The other half of the conference floor is made up of trade unions and other affiliates.) “Fighting those battles is a machine that I’ve had some involvement in for decades, but really, we perfected that machinery on the defensive during the Corbyn years.”
Akehurst managed this alone until 2017, when Matt Pound – who went on to advise Rachel Reeves – joined Labour First. “I’ve had various extremely talented young organisers working for me since then.”
As for the race to win spots for the nine Constituency Labour Party (CLP) representatives on Labour’s ruling body, it was once hotly contested. Since Keir Starmer introduced a proportional voting system in 2020, however, the contests have been far less dramatic.
“Because it takes a six or seven per cent swing for a seat to move, I would not expect movements of seats of more than about one,” the Labour First secretary says of the looming battle to shape the NEC.
The Labour right is putting forward four candidates, the Momentum left is promoting three, and Mainstream has a slate of three. (New outfit Restoration has six candidates, which Akehurst points out is unwise – “you can risk perverse results if you run too many”.)
But the results will tell us a lot about the factional composition of the party membership.
“The number of members who are deserting the party because it has become hostile and hyper-factional means it’s quite hard to know how members will resonate with different NEC slates,” says Hurst.
“We’ve also noticed this year that, when CLPs are trying to nominate candidates, so many aren’t quorate because they just don’t have the members to come along to meetings.”
Akehurst, of course, sees things differently: “What always happens when we’re in government is that some of the difficult decisions in government lead to some grassroots activists becoming disillusioned with the leadership. It’s offset to a certain extent by the very far left having other forums in which they’re exercising their politics, and the internal elections will tell us which of those factors is larger.”
“My impression from talking to activists and other MPs is, weirdly, that a lot of the political heat is here inside the PLP over policy,” he adds.
The leadership question
Akehurst is not covertly preparing Wes Streeting’s leadership bid as some on the left might assume. “People know that I’m very loyal to Keir. You can see, with the things going on in the Middle East, how good he is in a crisis, and the stature but also calmness he’s got on the global stage,” says the MP. He hopes “there’s not going to be a leadership contest in the Labour Party any time soon”.
What would Labour First do if the situation does arise? “It really depends on whether there’s one consensus candidate on the moderate wing of the party.” In 2020, it told supporters to vote for Starmer, Lisa Nandy or Jess Phillips; in 2015, Akehurst personally backed Yvette Cooper but again Labour First endorsed a selection – Cooper, Burnham and Liz Kendall – in its bid to stop Corbyn.
Akehurst employs a Game of Thrones analogy to make his point. “While the Seven Kingdoms are all biting chunks out of each other, the Night’s Watch has to protect the kingdom on the wall,” he says, casting Labour First as the Night’s Watch.
“Internecine warfare between people who should get on with each other – that’s sometimes a reality of politics. Our job is to sustain a broadly social democratic majority at conference and on the NEC, and make sure we don’t slip back into the politics of the Corbyn years.
“That we don’t do it immediately in one go, which I think is highly unlikely, but also that we don’t end up doing it in stages, where we end up with, say, a soft left leadership that reopens the door in terms of rule changes to the politics of the Corbyn years.”
That possibility is represented by Mainstream, which is closely linked to the Labour Party’s ‘King in the North’, Andy Burnham.
Despite having been founded just two weeks earlier, Mainstream endorsed Lucy Powell for the deputy leadership last year. “In the event of a leadership election, we would intervene in the same way. We’d ballot our members like we did for the deputy leadership and find out who they wanted to back, and we’d endorse a candidate,” confirms Hurst.
He insists that Mainstream’s focus right now is on developing a political programme, ready for any candidate that might emerge to succeed Starmer to take up. For too long, he says, the soft left has acted as kingmaker “without necessarily trying to assert a substantive politics in the process – that has to change this time”. The outline looks a lot like Burnham’s ‘Manchesterism’; a similar political economy, and an embrace of public ownership (not necessarily the top-down kind).
“There are other sections of the party that organise for the sake of organising, and then control becomes the end, and you end up in the situation where we are now. We have a government that’s done some good things, but has also made a huge litany of missteps, and there have been so many missed opportunities because it doesn’t have the political, moral, ideological roots to its project,” argues Hurst.
“We think it’s just as important to do that antecedent work of sketching out where you want the country to go, why you want power before – or alongside – trying to gain power.”
So, Mainstream is not just a front for the Burnham campaign? “If Andy were on the pitch, I think he would have a huge appeal to our members. But we work with people from all across the party… There are other talented Labour politicians in our orbit.”
At the group’s March reception in a Whitehall pub, Angela Rayner was the keynote speaker. She made headlines by warning that Labour “cannot just go through the motions in the face of decline” and by joining the growing group of Labour MPs urging a rethink of the government’s “un-British” immigration reforms.
“He won’t do deals – Andy does the personality and doesn’t feel the need to organise”
But if Rayner cannot overcome her own obstacles – most notably the stamp duty affair – to challenge Starmer after the May elections, Burnham backers reckon he still has a chance. The Prime Minister would be so weakened by terrible results, the theory goes, that he’d be forced to set a date for his departure; then, when another Greater Manchester seat popped up, Burnham could not be blocked.
Although Burnham has friends willing him to succeed in parts of Labour, including Mainstream, The House understands that he lacked internal organising nous ahead of the Gorton and Denton selection, declining to put calls in to union general secretaries or the key players on the NEC. “He won’t do deals – Andy does the personality and doesn’t feel the need to organise,” says one source who knows Burnham well. That does not bode well for such a plan.
So, could he be allowed to run next time a constituency is vacated? “I’ll be careful not to pre-judge that in case it comes to full NEC,” replies a sceptical Akehurst, a member of the NEC himself. “The last time around, it was a decision taken by the NEC officers.
“But I can’t see a reason why they would change their stance, given the argument was that we could not afford – in the literal sense of money – a by-election for the mayor of Greater Manchester, or afford in the political sense of potentially losing that, maybe to Reform, maybe to Green. It could be a tight three-way race.
“Once you get past the end of Andy’s term of office as mayor of Greater Manchester, why would we not want him in the PLP? He’d be an asset to the PLP. I would encourage him to make it clear that his motive in coming back to Parliament is to be a team player with Keir, or whoever is Prime Minister, but I do think he’s probably got to serve out his term as mayor.”
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The Most Cringeworthy Slang Of 2026, Ranked
If you’ve spoken to a single teen in recent years, chances are you’ve been confronted with slang like “six-seven”, “glazing,” “mid,” and “unc”.
But according to new research conducted by Preply, which surveyed over 1,500 Brits, some of these are already deemed cringeworthy.
Here’s what UK respondents said bothered them the most, and why:
What’s the most cringeworthy slang?
Per Preply, the words most likely to make people wince include:
1. Six-seven (24.4%)
Meaning: Nonsensical, “so and so”
2. Skibbidi (21.6%)
Meaning: “Cool” or “Bad”
3. Preggo (20.8%)
Meaning: Pregnant
4. Sorry, not sorry (18.1%)
Meaning: Humorously means “I don’t feel bad about it”
5. Holibobs (17.6%)
Meaning: Holiday
6. Slay (16.1%)
Meaning: To do something exceptionally well
7. Rizz (15.7%)
Meaning: To charm or seduce (from “charisma”)
8. Bae (15.7%)
Meaning: Significant other (similar to babe)
9. Wifey (15.3%)
Meaning: Wife or “girlfriend”
10. YOLO (14.9%)
Meaning: Abbreviation for “You only live once”.
Wait, why are these so bad?
Melissa Baerse Berk, an Associate Linguistics Professor from the University of Chicago, who is working with Preply, said: “Cringe isn’t really about the word itself, it’s about context and identity. Terms like ‘Skibbidi’ or ‘Rizz’ are closely associated with online subcultures and younger generations.
“When those words cross into everyday offline conversations, they can feel forced or inauthentic.”
As someone who heard “chat” out loud for the first time recently, I couldn’t agree more.
But, Prof Berk added, that doesn’t mean your favourite slang necessarily has to be out of reach.
“Using words found cringeworthy in an ironic sense suggests people aren’t just reacting to trends, they’re participating in them with a layer of self-awareness,” she explained.
“Irony acts as a social safety net, it allows people to engage with trends without fully committing to them.”
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The White Lotus Season 4: Cast, Location And Everything We Know So Far
One of the many thrills of The White Lotus is its ever-rotating cast and location.
From one season to the next, you’ll go from Jennifer Coolidge cutting about on a boat in Sicily, to Jason Isaacs as a desperate man on the brink of ruin in Thailand.
With the last season of the Emmy-winning show wrapping up more than a year ago, chatter has naturally now turned to the next instalment – and what new collection of eccentrics and property porn showrunner Mike White’s brain will concoct for us.
From rumoured cast members to shooting locations, here’s everything we know about it so far…
When will The White Lotus season 4 be released?
Fans will be pleased to hear that filming for season four isn’t far off. In fact, according to Variety, it’s due to begin at the end of April and last until the end of October, meaning we can expect another sun-drenched season of the hit show.
With that in mind, it looks like we can expect the new series of The White Lotus at some point in 2027, but with no official announcement yet we’ll have to wait and see.
Where will the next season of The White Lotus be set?
Season four will take us back to Europe after previous seasons in Thailand, Italy and Hawaii, with The White Lotus opening its doors in France this time around.
And with shooting taking place across the French riviera and Paris, it sounds like we’re in for a characteristically luxurious experience – especially if recent reports of filming at a 19th-century palace-turned-luxury hotel in Saint-Tropez are anything to go by.

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What will season 4 of The White Lotus be about?
So far, creators are staying tight-lipped on what the next storyline will be. All we know for sure is that it will stick to the classic White Lotus format of following a group of guests and hotel staff over the course of a week.
Variety has cited a combination of sources and alluded to filming dates that indicate we could see the Cannes Film Festival work its way into the plot, but for now that’s all speculation.

Season three saw the conclusion of the plot that straddled all series of the show, surrounding Jennifer Coolidge’s Tanya and her eventual demise, so we can presume that that’s now totally done and dusted, and we’re in for a completely fresh storyline.
Having said that, the show has a penchant for bringing back old characters, and with Belinda’s Natasha Rothwell setting off to start a new life at the end of season three, there’s always the possibility that we could see a return from other familiar faces in the next run.
Which actors are in the White Lotus season 4 cast?
The good news is, we have a hefty list of cast members who have already been reported to be on the call sheet.

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Among them are well-known faces like Helena Bonham Carter, Steve Coogan, Vincent Cassel, Ari Graynor, Sandra Bernhard, Chris Messina, AJ Michalka (aka one half of musical duo Aly & AJ) and Alexander Ludwig, with the likes of Caleb Jonte Edwards, Corentin Fila, Nadia Tereszkiewicz, Dylan Ennis and Marissa Long also believed to be checking in.
Meanwhile, Julia Louis-Dreyfus and Brad Hall’s son Charlie Hall, previously seen in The Sex Life Of College Girls, will take the “nepo baby” baton from last season’s Patrick Schwarzenegger and Sam Nivola when he joins the cast.
Most recently, it was announced that Kumail Nanjiani would be joining the line-up, along with New Girl actor Max Greenfield, Marvel star Chloe Bennet and Jarrad Paul.
There’s also the possibility that we’ll see some unexpected guest stars later down the line, as was the case during last season’s surprise appearance from Sam Rockwell.

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What have the creators of The White Lotus said about season 4?
While White Lotus creator Mike White is keeping his cards pretty close to his chest for the time being, he dropped a few season four tidbits in a recent interview with W Magazine.
He spoke about shooting his latest stint on the reality show Survivor six months before kicking off his White Lotus prep, explaining: “I came up with the concept of the show and the characters while I was there. But I don’t know if the experience itself really influenced it.”
Mike explained that the experience of returning from Survivor, and seeing the social media of people who he’d bonded with on the show, shaped his thinking for the series.
“I don’t know if that’s exactly the theme of the next season of White Lotus, but it’s definitely something I’ve thought about a lot – prioritising likes or the attention of strangers over creating real relationships,” he noted.
Pressed on what the new season will be about, the creator said “it’s a bit about fame, about who has the world’s attention, who is the plus-one, and how that can organise a relationship”.
“Some people are satisfied with the love of just an intimate partner, and some people need the love of strangers and a bigger kind of attention,” he elaborated.

And after the high melodrama of guns, blood and parables we saw in season three, last year Mike said he was keen to return to themes more aligned with season one in an interview for the official White Lotus podcast.
“Maybe something a little bit back to the first season where it’s satirising stuff that I know about,” he pondered.
“Art and criticism and movies and fame and celebrity and a film festival type of thing, or like an art world sort of situation. It just feels like that would be some kind of new theme to get into that’s maybe a little less heady than what we just did, but still have some juice to it.”
The first three seasons of The White Lotus are available to stream on Sky and Now in the UK.
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Peaky Blinders Film Cast: Where You’ve Seen The Immortal Man Stars Before
Cillian Murphy has officially bowed out of his frontline role as Tommy Shelby in the Peaky Blinders franchise with the Birmingham-based blockbuster The Immortal Man.
The film transports us into the throes of World War Two, with regular faces from the TV series like Cillian, Stephen Graham and surprise returnee Sophie Rundle joined by a collection of new characters as they navigate Nazi plots and gangland Birmingham.
If you thought a few of the new additions looked familiar, here’s where you might have seen them…
Barry Keoghan

One of the biggest stars of the moment, you’re probably most likely to know Barry Keoghan from his major breakthrough as bathtub-lurking wrong’un Oliver Quick in Saltburn.
He’s also starred in critically acclaimed films like The Banshees Of Inisherin (which landed him a Bafta award and an Oscar nomination), The Killing Of A Sacred Deer, Dunkirk, Bird and Bring Them Down.
Barry’s also no stranger to portraying a gangster, having also played one in the TV series Top Boy, while you might have also caught him in acclaimed miniseries Chernobyl.
Pop fans might also recognise him from his cameo in Sabrina Carpenter’s Please Please Please music video, filmed when the pair were dating.
Finally, if you have seen pictures of Barry with a Ringo ’do or moustache doing the rounds, that’s because he’s set to appear as the Beatles drummer in Sam Mendes’ upcoming musical biopic films.
Rebecca Ferguson

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Rebecca Ferguson has been a regular fixture on the big screen in both Sweden and Hollywood since her breakout as Ilsa Faust in Mission: Impossible, in which she starred opposite Tom Cruise.
Since then, Rebecca has appeared in the likes of Florence Foster Jenkins, The Girl On The Train, The Greatest Showman, Doctor Sleep, Dune and A House Of Dynamite.
TV fans might recognise her from BBC’s 2013 historical drama The White Queen, Apple TV+ sci-fi series Silo or The Red Tent.
Tim Roth

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Tim Roth is part of the “Brit pack” of British actors who broke into Hollywood in the 1980s.
Well-known for his collaborations with Quentin Tarantino – in films including Reservoir Dogs, Pulp Fiction and The Hateful Eight – he also picked up a Bafta win, and an Oscar nomination, for his role in Rob Roy.
His TV breakthrough came when he played the teen racist skinhead Trevor in Alan Clarke’s Made In Britain, after which he went on to appear in series like Twin Peaks: The Return, Tin Star and Last King Of The Cross.
Jay Lycurgo

DC Comics fans will recognise Jay Lycurgo for his work in the TV series Titans, in which he played Robin, but interestingly he also had a small role in the Robert Pattinson movie The Batman, too.
His other TV work has included I May Destroy You, Cheaters and Netflix’s The Bastard Son & The Devil Himself.
On the big screen, Jay appeared in another of Cillian Murphy’s projects, Steve, for which he won a British Independent Film Award.
Ruby Ashbourne Serkis

Like Jay, Ruby Ashbourne Serkis appeared in Cillian Murphy’s Steve before being cast in the Peaky Blinders film.
She previously appeared in Apple TV+’s The Greatest Beer Run Ever, portrayed a younger version of Susan Lynch character in the hard-hitting drama National Treasure and played Amy Robsart in the historical drama Becoming Elizabeth.
Oh, and if you’re wondering about that surname, yes, Ruby is the daughter of fellow actors Andy Serkis and Lorraine Ashbourne, sharing the screen with her dad in the 2020 Netflix series The Letter For The King.
Thomas Arnold

Before landing the role of Virgil in The Immortal Man, Thomas Arnold’s film work included bit parts in The Golden Compass, Netflix’s Matilda: The Musical, The Aeronauts and 2010’s Robin Hood.
As well as his five-episode stint in Wolf Hall as Hans Holbein, Thomas’ TV work has included everything from War & Peace and A Very Royal Scandal to Call The Midwife and The Missing.
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My 15-Year-Old Died By Suicide. Now I’m Urging Other Parents To Ask This Question
Early in the morning of Nov. 10, 2017, I got the phone call every parent dreads and none of us are ever prepared for. On that November morning, my oldest daughter, 15-year old Parker Lily, lost the battle with her mental health that we thought she’d been winning. Since that call, my family and I have been trying to rebuild our lives.
For years, I carried around the same tacit misconception many people do about suicide: if someone seems depressed, dejected or hopeless, you don’t say the S-word. You definitely don’t ask if they’re thinking about taking their own life. The worry behind this misconception is simple: you don’t want to put the idea of suicide into their head.
I’m here to tell you, as a father whose life was split into “before” and “after” by that phone call, the opposite is true.
If you take nothing else from what I’m about to say, take this: you will not cause suicide by asking someone directly if they’re thinking about it.
The mental health world has firmly renounced the idea of not asking someone directly. And I’m hoping to get as many people as possible to understand this and to jettison silence. You might be the lifeline they didn’t know they were allowed to grab.
Parker wasn’t a “statistic.” She was my daughter. She was also a force of nature.
Even as a little girl, she was formidable: curious, larger than life and constantly creating. Almost from the time she could walk, teachers were telling us how gifted she was as an artist, how she possessed a level of abstract thinking way beyond her years.
She was a protective, loving big sister to her siblings Rory and Hudson. She was fiercely loyal, cared deeply about her family and friends and had an antipathy for injustice that would light up a room, or a dinner table argument.
She was also very funny. At four, she was already asking big questions like, “Why can’t I eat ice cream for breakfast?” and delivering them with a level of confidence that made you think, “Honestly, why can’t you?”
In later years, you would have seen a bright, artsy teenager who was thriving at her Maryland high school; a place structured specifically for kids battling mental health issues. She made friends, acted in plays, created art and seemed, finally, to be hitting her stride. From the inside, there was a lot more going on.
Parker struggled with her mental health. There were moods we didn’t understand, self-harm, a stay in a psych ward. There were shifts in medications, potential diagnoses (bipolar? borderline personality disorder?) that were terrifying to hear attached to your child. There were stretches when she seemed to be climbing out of it – when we allowed ourselves to think, “She’s winning. We’re over the worst of it.”
We wanted that to be true so badly.
The morning she died, my phone rang with a Maryland number I didn’t recognise. I almost didn’t pick up. But I did pick up, and I heard an officer tell me Parker had taken her own life. Her roommate had found her. The police hadn’t been able to reach her mother, Deb, my ex-wife. I heard a voice come out of my mouth that said: “I’ll tell Deb.”
My brain split. Part of me was insistent that this had to be a mistake, a sick joke. The other part was already running toward the house where Deb and the kids were sleeping, knowing I had to wake them up and say the words out loud.
On my way there, I found myself standing on a corner, outside of myself, waiting for a traffic light to change. The bus stop, the police precinct, the blue sky: None of it made sense. Parker was gone. There was no right side up.
Then something overwhelmed me, rushing past the horror. It was the first of many to follow. It was a wave of grief. Grief that manifested itself as pure love.
I’m not ascribing any mystical significance to the experience. I was reacting to massive trauma. Adrenaline, flooding brain chemicals, my emotions, my memories, all working together to keep me from completely losing my grip. That’s a perfectly reasonable explanation.
But in that moment, Parker came to me – from my heart, my mind, my soul – and gave me the courage to go to her mother, to her siblings, and tell them that she was gone.
That was the beginning of “After.”

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In the months after Parker’s death, I started going to support groups for people left behind after suicide. I walked into those rooms feeling that my story was unique, my pain singular. I walked out realising that suicide is heartbreakingly common, and that most people don’t talk about it.
I heard story after story, each different in details but similar in impact: the shock, the guilt, the endless replaying of “What did I miss?” and “Why didn’t I…?” and “If only I’d said X, or done Y.”
The numbers are brutal, especially for young people. Too many of our kids are battling suicidal thoughts, and far too many of them are doing it in silence because they’re ashamed or scared, or because the adults around them are too terrified to even think about, let alone name what might be happening.
Then, in the spring of 2022, my daughter Rory wrote a college essay about living in the shadow of Parker’s death and her own mental health struggles. Reading her words – raw, direct, courageous – awoke something in me.
She talked about not knowing how to be anyone but “Parker’s sister,” about trying to figure out who she was in the wreckage. It knocked something loose in me.
I realised I couldn’t keep expecting my kids to tell the truth about their pain if I was going to stay quiet about mine. It was time to confront the silence and guilt that take over after suicide, and to make sure that people who feel pulled toward that edge know they are not alone. There is zero shame in asking for help.
So, I started telling my story.
At first, it wasn’t a show. It was just me, at a table late at night, scribbling memories and fragments: Parker as a little girl insisting on ice cream, Parker drawing on every surface in the apartment, Parker in a hospital gown apologising for being sick, Parker onstage at school and absolutely owning it.
I wrote about the day of the phone call and the immediate aftermath: the wake, and what it feels like to stand over your child’s body. What it feels like to see your grief mirrored by the family and friends surrounding you.
Over time, those pages turned into a script – a one-man show about a family punched through the heart by suicide, and the love that somehow keeps flowing regardless.
It’s a family portrait and a love letter to Parker. It’s also a survival story. Not a triumphant “and then everything was fine” survival, but the kind where you limp forward, fall down and keep getting up because there are still people who need you, who love you. I called it “Bent Through Glass” because life is unspeakably fragile, the world a place of broken shards despite our best efforts. And also, and more importantly, because even when glass fractures or breaks, it never ceases to refract the light around us.
If Parker can no longer be here, then what I want is for her story to help someone else stay.
If you’ve lost someone to suicide, you might be in the same loop I was:
How did I not see it coming? How did I let it happen? What kind of parent, partner, friend does this make me?
I don’t have answers that make those questions disappear. What I’ve learned is that the questions themselves are a vacuum. “Why?” is eternal, possessing an infinite array of answers. I spent years asking why, only to be dragged deeper into a lightless hole, every time.
The only thing that has any consistency for me now is this: don’t turn away from it. Turn toward it. That means turning toward your own grief instead of stuffing it down and pretending you’re “fine.” It means turning toward the people around you who are hurting, instead of looking away because you’re afraid of saying the wrong thing.
And it especially means this: if you think someone you love might be suicidal, say the word. Ask the question.
You are not going to “give them the idea.” If they are in that kind of pain, the idea is already there. What you might give them is permission to tell the truth out loud. Ask directly: “Are you thinking about killing yourself?” If the answer is yes:
- Stay.
- Tell them you’re grateful they told you.
- Help them reach out to trained support: a crisis line (in the U.S., you can call or text 988), a therapist, a doctor, a trusted adult, whoever is available and trained to help.
You don’t have to fix them. You’re not a superhero. You’re a human being saying, “I see you, and I’m not going anywhere.”
If you’re the one in that dark place right now, hovering on the edge of thoughts you don’t want to admit even to yourself, this is what I want to say as a father:
Stay. Stay long enough to tell one person. Stay long enough to make one call or send one text. Stay long enough to get through this hour, and then the next one.
You are not weak for needing help. You are not a burden for feeling this way. There is no shame in saying, “I can’t hold this alone.”
When I step out under the lights and tell this story, I’m not doing it because I enjoy reliving the worst day of my life. I’m doing it because, in the aftermath of Parker’s death and Rory and Hudson’s struggles, it’s clear to me that silence around suicide is killing people.
We cannot afford that silence anymore. We never could.
Alex Koltchak is a writer, filmmaker, actor, performer, and stand-up comedian. His one-man show, Bent Through Glass, is being staged at The 30th Street Theater in NYC from April 1-25, 2026, with the aim of performing the work nationally.
Help and support:
- Mind, open Monday to Friday, 9am-6pm on 0300 123 3393.
- Samaritans offers a listening service which is open 24 hours a day, on 116 123 (UK and ROI – this number is FREE to call and will not appear on your phone bill).
- CALM (the Campaign Against Living Miserably) offer a helpline open 5pm-midnight, 365 days a year, on 0800 58 58 58, and a webchat service.
- The Mix is a free support service for people under 25. Call 0808 808 4994 or email help@themix.org.uk
- Rethink Mental Illness offers practical help through its advice line which can be reached on 0808 801 0525 (Monday to Friday 10am-4pm). More info can be found on rethink.org.
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‘Mother Of All U-Turns’: Starmer Slammed After Trump Allowed To Expand Use Of RAF Bases To Bomb Iran
Keir Starmer has been accused of the “mother of all U-turns” after giving the US the green light to expand their use of RAF bases to bomb Iran.
Downing Street announced that American jets will be allowed to use British bases to strike sites targeting the Strait of Hormuz.
It marks a significant shift in the government’s approach to the UK’s involvement in the war.
Starmer initially refused Donald Trump’s request to use RAF bases to bomb Iran at the start of the war.
However, the prime minister then decided to allow them to launch “defensive” missions against missile launch sites.
A Downing Street spokesman said those attacks can now be expanded as part of efforts to re-open the Strait of Hormuz, which carries around one-fifth of the global oil supply.
Its closure due to attacks by Iran on oil tankers has sent the price of oil soaring and sparked fears of a global economic crisis.
The No.10 spokesman said: ”[Ministers] confirmed that the agreement for the US to use UK bases in the collective self-defence of the region includes US defensive operations to degrade the missile sites and capabilities being used to attack ships in the Strait of Hormuz.
“They reaffirmed that the principles behind the UK’s approach to the conflict remain the same: the UK remains committed to defending our people, our interests and our allies, acting in accordance with international law and not getting drawn into the wider conflict.
“Ministers underlined the need for urgent de-escalation and a swift resolution to the war.”
Despite the shift in the UK’s position, Trump told reporters Starmer “should have acted a lot faster”.
Posting on X, Tory leader Kemi Badenoch said the PM had performed “the mother of all U-turns”.
Shadow defence secretary James Cartlidge added: “After weeks of dither and finger pointing, the prime minister has once again changed his mind and performed yet another screeching U-turn.
“The prime minister had the Navy’s only active minesweeper taken out of the Gulf a week before the war began. He dithered about sending a warship to help defend our base in Cyprus. And where we have been clear from the outset that we would have allowed our closest military ally to use our bases, Starmer has been all over the place.
“When we need strong leadership in challenging times, Starmer is weak and indecisive.”
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Jenni Murray, Long-Serving Woman’s Hour Presenter, Dies Aged 75
Dame Jenni Murray, the veteran journalist best known as the longest-serving host of the BBC’s Woman’s Hour, has died at the age of 75.
In a post on the Radio 4 show’s Instagram page on Friday evening, the channel’s controller Mohit Bakaya said: “Jenni Murray was a formidable voice in British broadcasting who was warm, fearless and beloved by listeners.
“During her decades at Woman’s Hour, she helped shape the national conversation with intelligence, rigour and a remarkable ability to connect with audiences. Jenni leaves an indelible legacy on generations of listeners.
“We are profoundly grateful for her outstanding contribution to Radio 4, and she will be deeply missed.”
Dame Jenni began presenting Woman’s Hour in 1987, before officially stepping down more than 30 years later, in October 2020.
Prior to that, she had worked at other flagship BBC shows including Newsnight and Radio 4’s Today Show.
She continued to work in journalism following her Woman’s Hour departure, writing for the likes of the Daily Mail and Saga magazine.
In 2011, she was awarded a damehood by the late Queen Elizabeth II for services to broadcasting.
The BBC’s outgoing director-general Tim Davie also paid his respects on Friday, saying: “This is incredibly sad news and our thoughts are with all of Dame Jenni’s family and friends. Dame Jenni was, simply put, a broadcasting icon.
“Throughout her three groundbreaking decades on Woman’s Hour, Jenni created a safe space for her audience thanks to her warmth, intelligence and courage.
“We shall all miss her terribly. Her legacy endures in the countless conversations she started, the many issues she championed and the lives she touched.”
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The House Article | Regulation is the key to the lobbying industry’s PR problem

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Once again in recent weeks, lobbying has made the headlines and, regrettably, not for the right reasons.
Each new scandal reinforces a narrative that influence is traded in the shadows and that standards in our profession are optional. They are not. Integrity is not a bolt-on to public affairs – it is the foundation of it.
But moments like these should not simply prompt outrage. They should prompt reform.
Lobbying, when conducted openly and responsibly, is a vital part of a healthy democracy. It advocates for better legislation, strengthens decision-making and ensures diverse voices are heard. Public affairs, at its best, builds constructive and lasting relationships between business and government that result in stronger legislation and regulation.
Governments too recognise the value of lobbying. As the consultation on the establishment of statutory regulation said: “Lobbying serves an important function in politics – by putting forward the views of stakeholders to policy makers, it helps in the development of better legislation. But it needs to be open and transparent.”
Better legislation affects every aspect of our lives. From fire regulations to tax policy, from the distribution of benefits to transport, education and building standards, public policy sits at the core of how our society functions. Representative, well-informed lawmaking depends on policymakers hearing from those with expertise, experience and evidence to offer. That is authentic advocacy.
Yet there is often confusion about where the line sits between legitimate advocacy and grubby lobbying. Too often, companies themselves are uncertain. As a result, many organisations hesitate to put their heads above the parapet to challenge bad policy or propose better solutions, fearing reputational risk by association.
This confusion is compounded by a regulatory framework that is simply not fit for purpose.
The UK’s existing legislation, centred on the Transparency of Lobbying, Non-Party Campaigning and Trade Union Administration Act 2014, was introduced by the Coalition government following concerns about lobbying transparency.
The resulting act aimed to improve transparency, but its scope is narrow. It captures only consultant lobbyists hired externally, while the vast majority of lobbying activity is conducted in-house by companies, charities and trade bodies and therefore falls outside its remit.
The legislation was never designed to operate in isolation. It was intended to sit alongside wider transparency measures, including quarterly departmental disclosures of ministers’ and senior officials’ meetings, gifts and hospitality.
The Registrar of Consultant Lobbyists also encourages adherence to recognised voluntary codes of conduct, such as those of the Public Relations and Communications Association (PRCA) and other professional bodies, as an indicator of good practice. Even taken together, however, these mechanisms remain fragmented.
As a standalone statutory safeguard, the act is insufficient: it lacks both the breadth and the independence required to command sustained public confidence.
Transparency around who is lobbying whom, and on what issues, strengthens public trust. It ensures that decision making takes place openly and responsibly. Without it, suspicion festers and responsible practitioners are tarnished by the actions of the few.
The answer is not to vilify lobbying, nor to pretend that engagement between policymakers and external organisations is inherently suspect. A healthy democracy depends on that engagement. The answer is stronger, clearer and more coherent regulation that applies consistently across the board whether the engagement comes from business, charities, non-governmental organisations or anyone else.
The PRCA supports decisive government action to strengthen integrity in lobbying. The newly formed Ethics and Integrity Commission must be given the powers it needs to design and enforce meaningful reform, backed by credible and independent oversight.
As a professional body, the PRCA stands firm for higher standards. We challenge bad practice, champion transparency and provide our industry with a principled voice. Our Code for Professional Lobbying, alongside our broader Code of Conduct, sets an uncompromising benchmark for ethical practice.
Regulation alone will not solve the industry’s reputational challenges. But clear rules, properly enforced, create the conditions in which ethical practice can succeed and misconduct can be rooted out.
Sarah Waddington is CEO of the PRCA
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