‘My four-year-old daughter found me covered in blood on the floor’
A dad who collapsed on a hot summer’s day due to apparent ‘dehydration’ was later diagnosed with a brain tumour.
Josuha Baines had noticed he was becoming forgetful shortly before he was found lying unconscious and covered in blood by his four-year-old daughter in 2021, following a seizure.
The 34-year-old vicar, from Esher, Surrey, had suffered a seizure and was rushed to hospital. When he got there, doctors told him he was just suffering from dehydration.
A few weeks later, Josh suffered another seizure. A CT scan revealed a brain tumour, which was diagnosed as being aggressive and terminal in 2022.
Josh was given just a few years to live, but chemotherapy reacted better than expected. Josh called the incredible recovery an “answer to my prayers”.
However, in October 2025, he was told it had spread to the back of his brain. Josh is now fundraising for a treatment to help slow the spread of the cancer down, and give him more time with his three kids.
“I noticed something was wrong when I kept forgetting the lyrics to songs in church,” he said. “I’d be leading the team and then I would just forget what was happening next, or where I was, it was so unlike me.
“One morning I remember walking into the bathroom, and starting to clean my teeth, and then I just felt so dizzy.
“I felt like I was somewhere else, like the dreamworld in Stranger Things. I passed out and my four year old daughter found me covered in blood on the floor.”
Josh continued: “When I got diagnosed it felt horrific, I just completely shut down, and felt so numb. Doctors told me the cancer was spreading really quickly, and that it was terminal, I fell off my chair and passed out, my wife was in pieces.
“Going through treatment is a bit like a McDonald’s drive through, you go in, do your scan, and they tell you if your cancer is better or worse, and how long you’re going to live.”
He added: “As a family, we just have to pretend things are normal, but it’s so hard.”
Josh has always been terrified of getting cancer, as it affected his grandparents whilst he was growing up, and every morning as a teenager, would vomit out of fear and anxiety.
“One of the hardest parts has been explaining things to our children in a way they can understand,” he explained. “We call MRI scans the ‘doughnut machine’, and when there was new growth found, we described it as an extra sprinkle on the doughnut.
“Sitting around the dinner table and answering questions honestly, including questions about death, forces you to hold hope and realism at the same time. As a parent, you realise very quickly that cancer isn’t just something happening in your body, it reshapes the emotional life of a home.”
He added: “My faith hasn’t removed the difficulty, but it has given me something to stand on when things feel uncertain.”
The cancer is causing Josh to lose his sight and doctors are unable to operate on the tumour, but have offered him a treatment called Bevacizumab.
This should slow down its growth, giving him more time to spend with friends and family. However, the treatment is not funded by the NHS, and costs £9,042 every eight weeks.
Josh has set up a GoFundMe page to try and raise money for the treatment, so that he can spend more time making memories with his family.




